Yep, I have had withdrawal symptoms from stopping my medication that I quit cold turkey. I call it brain lag or eye lag. It's like your eyes move a tad bit slower than your head. Or your brain doesn't register things you see near as fast. There's also a sound when this happens followed by dizziness. Sometimes I feel like I am actually drunk. It's not a good feeling though. I have also had severe exhaustion. This Thursday will have been two weeks since I stopped the medication. I am very hopeful it gets better soon. I was nauseous the first week, glad that's gone.
I had made the mistake of stopping drinking Dr. Pepper or any caffeine also. It really had just stopped tasting good. Today was my third day without and I started to get a migraine. That along with the medication withdrawal was a little more than I could handle. I had half of a can of pop at work and it helped. I also had a glass at supper tonight with some classmates. It definitely took away the headache. Unfortunately, the dizziness, brain lag and sounds continue.
One great thing is that I have been sleeping like a baby. Lots of dreams and I am still exhausted, but sleeping good. It is very frustrating to wake up from sleeping great and still be exhausted. Today my dizziness started before I even got out of bed and that was frustrating.
I don't cry very often from pain or not feeling well, but I got tears in my eyes at my desk today because I felt horrible. Absolutely awful. I left a heap of work on my desk as it was a true Monday, but I am looking forward to tomorrow and getting caught up.
I was not looking forward to violin practice followed by a meeting for our 15 year reunion. Violin practice went really well and I found myself escaping through my music. It is much more rewarding when you feel like you are playing music and not just screeching a bow across some strings. Afterwards, I came home and changed and met my classmates at Gutch's. I enjoyed a nice visit with them. It was when I got into the car that I realized driving at night is probably not good right now with my brain/eye lag. I will definitely be trying to avoid that until this clears up, which I hope is soon.
My husband suggested getting back on the medication if it was too much. Folks, I didn't come this far to quit. I haven't suffered for a week and a half to quit. If I can quit smoking, I can quit this. My fuses are a little shorter but I am having to teach myself to handle it differently. I think some people can deal with frustration, rudeness and ignorance better than others. Some are so easy to let things go and think others should be able to also. We are all different and we all deal with things differently. I truly believe that my fuses are shorter than most and my husband can prove that. He is able to let things roll off of him most of the time. I am trying to learn this technique. Please don't assume it's the same for everyone. It's not.
For the moment, I am relaxed and feel peaceful. I'll take it whenever I can get it.
Lastly, I love my husband!
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